Yeah. Heard someone saying a name of a coworker at work, but for some reason in that one moment it seemed super meaningful, like hearing it reminded me of something really important but was also nothing at the same time.
A few months later, I saw a girl with that name on okcupid and she was into the stuff I was and we had a high match percentage and I thought maybe what I heard before was some sign of her, but I couldn't think of anything to say and didn't message her. But then she messaged me.
Our charts were like inverted versions of one another's through the Mayan system, too. It was weird. In a simplified way, it was like my inner self was like her outer self and my outer self was like her inner self.
It was an awful non-existent relationship. It was so weird. We opened up a lot about painful things and brought out the worst in each other. Every time we tried to be affectionate, it always came from one side and felt wrong to the other. I also kept having this weird feeling that she was no one. Even now, I feel like it never happened and I just heard about it somewhere.
But during it, there was this weird pull, like she was a magnet. There were times she really pissed me off, and I would be livid and would tell her I hated her and then would want her back the next day. She also would be turned off by me a lot and would stay even when part of her didn't want to. I thought it meant we were meant to be, but then after the whole thing ended I noticed myself repeatedly getting mad at her in my head for months after.
We both basically were at our most pathetic and were attached to each other and confused it for love, and the anger actually broke the illusion, but I didn't listen to it much. It took months for me to realize that it's not unreasonable to be furious when someone says they like you and stuff and then chooses an extra day with someone they'll be around for two months over the one day they had to see you for those two months.
I think the lesson I ultimately learned is the difference between loving someone and thinking I love someone out of attachment.