Do you ever look at other people and think "They're life is better than mine."..."Wouldn't I be better off dead?"

I'm sorry to hear all of that. I realize that I don't know you, but I think you are too hard on yourself. Perhaps being born with "ever advantage in life" was the exact recipe for being surrounded by a population that is superficial. That is no fault of your own. Also, I highly doubt you are incapable of romantic relationships. I don't say this to discount what you're feeling, but it takes two people. If all your friends are superficial, what does that say about the demographic you're left to date? Not to mention, society puts so much bullshit in the way of, what could be, thriving relationships. You have a "great job" but what if all your time at work makes your partner feel devalued and so they decide to leave. There are so many variables that I don't think you should blame yourself for the way you feel. From what you told me, it's no wonder you feel empty. Do you have anything else in life that gives you meaning? I realize love and friendship are huge components for cultivating meaning in life (I'm struggling to find this IRL for myself), but maybe creating something, volunteering, or exploring your spirituality could open up new avenues for you. Maybe you'll meet different types of people. Maybe you'll find a passion that's cathartic for you and makes everything else in the world disappear for a little while. I hope things go better for you.

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