I have a new doctor, a nice young woman who could be my daughter, and I had my second appointment with her the other day. I dont think she remembered me from my first appointment about 8 months ago.
She asked me if I felt any depression, and I actually thought about it for a moment,and said, "Sure, I'm always depressed."
She seemed shocked, and said, "How long have you felt this way?" and I told her I think I've always been depressed. I dont ever remember feeling really happy. If I ever do start feeling good, something slams me back to earth real quick.
She asked if Ive ever done anything about it, and I said No, I dont have time to indulge my depression. Ive learned to push it aside and get on with life. She seemed a little shaken by it, but we moved on.
It would be nice to feel happy about something, though.