Everyone can easily replace me with someone much better

I look exactly like this one girl, we have exactly the same laugh, and we end up having the same crushes most of the time except she gets them and I don't. She's like an upgraded version of me in everything except I'm really knowledgeable and passionate but nobody sees that side of me or when they do they get this weird quiet. Or "nobody cares nerd" thanks because I don't already feel like nobody cares about me. Like they expect me to be dumb and I didnt live up to their flawed expectation of me. I try so hard to be nice to everyone and be helpful, what did I do? Breathe? Exist?

I hate my life. Everyone hates me. They've said so. I dont get what she has I don't. And she's a jerk to me. Most people are jerks to me. If they're not they're passive aggressive and ignore me. Then when I get hurt it's "oh you're so quiet" I'm quiet because you're all jerks to me and I feel everyone wants me dead.

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