Given my outlook on life and the csrds ive been dealt so far, if i had a child, i would be living for them, making life easy for them because its almost literally one problem after another.

If i had to put life on a 50 50 scale with one side yes and one side no, it would be on the no side, i dont want to do it most of the time, and i mostly didnt like growing up, and i have a great family and parents who look after me, why on earth would i want to pass that on to my kin, it would be torture for me to watch my kid grow up and not be able to tell him its shit when hes done, its shameful that individuals in the human race do not think such things when reproducing, for that 5 minutes or more of brief distraction from your problems, your created a new eternity of madness to someone who doesnt want to exist? Its an endless cycle

I dont make time for anybody else because most humans are disgusting and have their own agenda and will backstab you as soon as its reasonable for them, ive always failed to see a point in humanity to a point where ive been on a rant to with tears coming down my face at how much i hate the world, and then those "friends" still betray you and become no better than the rest of them, but its the same as always, nobody wants to off themselves, and nobody wants to push on.