They say "everyone's fighting a battle you don't know about." What's yours?

I'm fine personally but I have this weird paranoia where I assume everyone is violent and are just pretending they aren't. It's really created a lack of trust between me and others.

It's hard to explain. I'll just listen in on conversations and hear people say violent things and it just stands out in my mind. I'm always looking for these conversations to spring up and they do ALL of the time. People talking about what they wish they could do but can't because of lawful repercussions. These violent words will then just echo in my head and I feel I need to avoid these people... I hear it all the time though too which has given me a very cynical view of society's mental health situation and I just don't think I'd be able to trust anyone with my life.

How could all of these people just live perfectly normal lives when I can catch them talking about how they'd skin someone alive and dip their body in salt? Even when it's joking it's still a red flag to me. This thought has crossed their mind and they put themselves into such a dark thought process that they ended up fantasizing about performing these horrible acts... And yet they'll still go back to normal civilized shit. It's worrying to me. 300 million people in this country and this is the type of shit that goes through the average individual's mind (at least based on what I'm seeing). I have to work with these people, I have to trust them to cook my food, and I may even have to trust them to save my life.

I accidentally spill water on someone and then they make eye contact with me and what are they thinking? Do they walk off and fantasize about bludgeoning me to death with the nearest object? I'm one of those guys who can't even kill a bug with a clear conscience so I know the high amount of people with violent fantasies that I'm picking out can't be normal people. Is this like an American thing? Idk do you folks in England or Canada or Switzerland or whatever country notice this too? I feel like I need to get the fuck out of dodge, I don't belong in this psychotic cess pool. I'm just not made for it.

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