Everytime...

I'm in the same place right now. It's pretty shit, I know.

In my personal experience, which may not have any relevance to you, being prescribed a larger dose only contributes to fucking everything up further. It's more likely that it won't make things easier at all, and your abuse will probably end up worsening as you get a larger daily allowance.

I always have the same desire to cut back; every day is the last day I take such ridiculously high doses, every dose is the last one for the day, and every time I fill my prescription I fully intend to only take 15mg IR once a day. I always intend for things to be different, but it's never so. I have the best self control out of anybody else that I know, and yet I'm totally useless at stopping myself from devouring 150mg in a day. It has me hooked.

Maybe it'll be totally different for you though, I'm just speaking from personal experience.

My advice is to tell your doctor that you've been trying to reduce your dosage (down from prescribed dosage) but you're having some trouble handling the lowered dose. Say that you haven't made any progress on your own because it's difficult not to just take your prescribed dosage, or something along those lines. Ask for some advice on cutting back a little. This way you're at least taking an official step towards getting things under control. You're unlikely to get cut off as long as you don't make too much of a big deal about it. Keep your cool, and if the doctor suggests cutting you off, just take a second or two to "think", and then explain that you feel it greatly benefits your life and that it would be more detrimental to stop taking vyvanse.

I hope things work out for you.

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