Me right now and more so this last few weeks. I've had cereal for my dinner 4x cause I just can't get myself to go. I don't know how to fix it. I've been alone since December and the weight of suddenly having to manage myself with no support is too much. Been a slow but constant descent into helplessness. Literally got my med here too, been sat in sofa for about 2 hours, should shower, should try find something to eat then go get shopping. Know I will feel so much lighter mentally for it and physically for the exercise and nutrition. Yet... I am blocked by this invisible fuckn chain that I don't know anymore if its genuine or have I become sadistic and on some level find it easier to just wallow instead of facing life. Or is that shame talking. Uncertainty is the bain of my existence... I think.