A lot of people think they're "worse" than others. It makes them feel special. "Reality is for other people, I'm special. It's different for me."

my analytical deductions

You mean your anti-analytical deductions...you're not analyzing anything. You've already "reached" your conclusions, remember? You went from analyzing to believing and, apparently, you cast that in stone as if it's "knowing". You twisted it until it fit your belief. Then you quit.

Of course, if you look at it any further your truth/belief/reached-conclusion will fall apart so best to just stop at a point that appears to justify all the whining and claim it's "intellectual". Thank God for "nihilism", eh?