I can tell you my story, it might give you some insight. When I was 14 I lived in a small gated community. We had a group of friend that was made up of about 20 people. We would hangout year round walking from house to house or swimming at the local pool or playing in the woods. On my 16th birthday I got in a bad accident and was left in a coma for about a week. Upon awaking I learned that my friends little sister had stayed with me at the hospital the entire time. I had never had anyone care about me so much before and I was head over heals. We started dating and it didn't last long but my love for her never went away. The reason we broke up? Her body had "developed" and she started getting attention from boys all over the place. She wanted to "explore" which is just another term for letting a bunch of different guys fuck her. Because we lived in a small town every other week I would see an acquaintance at a party and find out he had banged her. It was constant. It broke my heart. I started drinking, cutting myself, suicide attempts, ended up in a youth mental institution for self harming, ect. Well jealousy and heart break eventually lead to hatred and resentment, I started keeping to myself and doing my own thing and as years went by I got my life together, found myself, took pride in work, and started to love myself for who I am as a person. I was about 27 when she randomly messaged me asking how i had been and what I was doing in life. A week later of casually texting and she was asking if we could go on a date and consider what if we hadn't ever broken up In the first place. I was sick to my stomach and that hatred came right back. All I could think about is the multitude of men that had banged the girl I once gave my heart to. I told her I didn't want anything more to do with her and that I would like her to never contact Me again. So if you really want to go fuck around while your young go for it. But remember that you are likely going to permanently lose him.