No, it's just an edgy teenager me "forming" my opinion and I admit I'm barely educated and have a lot of books left to read but I already know what I'm "leaning" at because aside from daily dive in communist subreddits to unlearn propaganda I've had conversations with my relatives which 90% of them lived in Ukraine during last years of USSR and asking about their grandparents and other relatives who lived in the USSR during stalin era and I've had enough of CIA lies that infected my country which I partially believed on my own, I never even payed attention to my parents until I started being interested in communism when they occasionally were having talks between themselves at the dinning table about "americans" who say stupid untrue shit about the soviet union.

It's the process of getting educated to be able to explain things on my own to non communists which I have to complete but at least be honest and admit that you're either an "enlightened" teenager or an uneducated adult who never read a book or read 1 CIA sponsored author and now think you know how to solve world problems.