Do you fear death? Why/why not?

This will be buried, but I have a realistic take on it. I did almost die, which seemed nice at the time, but now I wish I had. I'm in pain most off the time. Meds only do so much. It feels like there are constantly health problems popping up. I have endo, diverticulitis w/emergency surgery, liver disease, and most recently, severe arthritis in my left hip and right foot. Ive always worked on my feet, and that will be taken from me sooner than later. Dealing with this, trying to internalize so. much. shit. I don't know. I have so many people in my life that I love, but them patting me on the back and helping isn't going to help forever. I have this tattoo on my back; a quote from Slaughterhouse Five. And the irony is just too perfect. Everything was beautiful, and nothing hurt. Well...I have chronic pain. Bone spurs. Endo is insane pain. So, while I did come close to death and was satusfied that I hadn't died was because It was scary. Hallucinating. The only thing holding me back is my folks. In their 70's. How fucked up is it that j think about when my life will end, in terms of after my parents are gone. Life is so whacky.

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