Yeah, I think a main thing was that I'm kinda fuzzy on what even defines mental disorder. Some mental disorders have genetic/brain parts but are still considered mental (I think? I have anxiety disorder and it's supposedly at least part hereditary and due to brain stuff). I mean, I literally don't know. I'm not pushing an agenda or anything. It seems like our issues would be easier if it was considered an illness (insurance, acceptance (not sure on that, but seems it?), etc) and I don't really see why it's not. Definitely don't see why it's so offensive to ask.
As for ranting, yeah. I feel like this (trans, not reddit) community or what I've seen of it wants to be so inclusive it excludes a lot of people. If you're not allowed to ask legit questions because people are too sensitive, then how is that inclusive? I was literally told to fuck off. How is that inclusive? It's fucked up. I'm not gonna sit here confused, feeling shit about myself just because some cry baby can't handle an innocent question.
I also feel like it's positive to a fault. I totally understand why, though. We all have enough negativity, it's good to bring each other up. But it's at the cost of leaving people out who want to have a real discussion or a real understanding. You'll see people posting on /r/transpassing who are 100% obviously not passing, but nobody will say it. That's causing more harm than good, but everyone just wants to be positive.
I just feel like the whole community is so fake and it frustrates me. I don't wanna pretend everything is awesome, pretend I'm some beautiful girl. I say someone in a thread the other day argue rudely because a trans girl said "I don't wanna wake up and see a man in the mirror still." Instead of addressing the issue, they just kept blabbing on about "You'd see a woman, you just have internalized transphobia." Like ok, maybe that's true, but it sure as shit wasn't helping the girl. Just stop it. This is real life, why can't we treat it like such?
I accept I'm trans (probably, idk, anxiety issues make me wonder). That doesn't mean I should have to pretend it's awesome, pretend I don't have questions about it. I shouldn't be silenced for disagreeing with things, or sharing experiences (therapist pushing me to transition) just because it fuels some agenda other people have against us. Sorry, that doesn't make my experiences not true. I'm kinda rambling at this point, but idk, it just bothers me because I feel like I don't belong anywhere. Even this thread got downvoted, though I imagine because I was mad af when I posted it and wasn't worded nicely. But still, people can't be mad here?