I don’t think I can be particularly useful with this reply but I still wanted you to know that I understand you even if maybe only to a little extent I do, and as I do, I’m sure other people can too. Maybe not everyone, but some can and it’s these kind of people we should choose as friends so that when we are facing any struggle we’ll be able to share it with them and know we’ll find support. I know you don’t feel like you are in the conditions of talking to a friend, but opening up, without going into details, to a teacher you think you can trust could really help. Last year I talked to one of my teachers without going into detail about anything and they turned out to be way nicer than I thought. In the beginning I didn’t even want to tell anyone but I had basically almost started crying in class so I had to. You could also try to find a new psychologist if you think the one you see now isn’t helping. There’s nothing wrong in seeking help, everyone sooner or later in their lives needs it and finding someone we feel comfortable with is really essential. It’s also important to remember that psychologist don’t judge us. They really just want to help and are supposed to feel safe even if most times it’s hard to feel that way. Sometimes online friends are great too because often we’re very most likely to not ever meet them and so it can be easier to open up to them. There should be some subs to find friends. I would propose as one if ever want to text someone but I don’t know if I could be able to help, I could try though, I guess.. :) I also say I understand to a certain extent because when I was very little I was afraid of sleeping too. Nowadays I don’t remember it very clearly because I was in elementary school but my mom told me I told her I always dreamt about (gore waring) all my classmates and my family decapitated with their heads on trays and other things like that. Maybe it doesn’t seem like much but at the age I had it was really terrifying to me and I literally didn’t want nightime to come. This is just to say I don’t think you’re crazy or anything you just need support and help. As I said I think this reply is useless but I still wanted to show you that if you find the right people you won’t be alone in this and as I said if you want to we can sometimes text. I would also advice against deleting your post because maybe I’m not useful but others could be. I too once posted something (not here) that I had written while I was thinking about suicide and the following morning felt very ashamed of it but I convinced myself to not delete it because this is part of who we are too and we should fight to improve but also be honest about it and not hide it. This is just how I had interpreted it for myself though! (I’m very sorry if this is useless..)