I feel less alone crying in the dark thank I do next to him.

I should have just gone to West Point. Why didn't I just go to West Point? I could've saved myself all this anguish and heartbreak.

Girl this literally broke my heart to read, this part right here.

I know others would agree, you are WAY to young to be in this situation, idk what country you are in but in the USA you aren't even old enough to drink yet.

I just broke up with my partner recently as well. Well, he broke up with me because I am the LL but I didn't fight it. I was tired. I was LL because he made me feel exactly the way you feel (I read your other post) and then some. He cheated and lied and gaslighted me and it's hard to want to have sex with someone you barely trust. But I'm glad he did it because I didn't want to live this way anymore either.

The reason that line upset me is because I too live with regret, and during the relationship, I started to think to myself, "This life holds nothing but pain for me. Pain and regret. I am done with this life and I am ready for the next one."

But idk if it's any consolation to you, since things have ended I have stopped thinking that. I realized, that by letting him walk away, I was ending the life I had and I was indeed starting the next one.

This can be you. I promise you you are not as bad looking as you might think you are. I'm dealing with some disordered eating tendencies right now too because I was also made to believe I was too ugly to be faithful too. I thought losing weight would help.

But what helped most of all was leaving the relationship. Saying goodbye to the person who made me feel empty and alone, and choosing myself instead. I feel lighter. I feel younger. Why choose to be lonely with someone when you can choose to be lonely by yourself? When you are lonely by yourself, it honestly feels a lot less alone. You realize you are all you need.

A year ago you were still a teenager. And by the next decade you will be 30. SO much changes in your twenties and this is just one more thing. Be brave. It will be hard but you have the strength in you, even if you don't see it yet. I believe in you.

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