Okay let's start with saying that no matter how much you want to give up right now, dont. I'm not saying there's a light at the end of a tunnel and one day it's magically all better because that would be a lie.

I was diagnosed less than a year ago and I understand what you're going through. It's a lot to process and deal with at such a young age. But there are good days. Days when it doesn't feel like you have Crohns and life is good. You've got it under control and you can go out and go to a pumpkin patch or whatever you want. There's also a LOT of bad days. Days we can't get out of bed. Days we're stuck in the bathroom. Days we worry about having to end up in the ER.

For me, the way I look at it is maybe it's a good thing. Because now I appreciate those good days so much more. I spend more time with my family. I'm nicer to people. I feel like it's made me better to know that one day it could all be gone. But for now, I should be lucky for what I have and live how much ever I can. Everyone has something. For us it's crohns and along with it comes depression. It's not easy but slowly if we change our mindset, it's better mentally and physically.

No matter how bad I feel I try and do something. I draw, paint, go to the gym (even if I'm only going to be there for 10 minutes). Just something that takes my mind somewhere else.

You'll be okay. You're still so young. I had thoughts similar to yours at that age. I didn't think I would live to graduate high school. But here I am! About to graduate college! It hasn't always been a journey up and I've had a lot of really bad lows but I never stopped trying. And I'm so thankful for that. You will be too.