I feel like giving up and I need advice, thank you

I had psychiatrist and i took medication when I was child. They thought I had autism(I don't), so it definitely left a bad taste in my mouth. I was in a special needs program for delinquent kids in the 5th grade because I misbehaved and didn't do my homework. I don't ever want to deal with that bs again. Everyone thought I was crazy just because of that goddamned program I was in. I don't want to be labeled as psycho. And if I tell a psychiatrist that I am suicidal, they may take my guns. I spent a lot of money and invested a lot of time into my firearms hobby. I would never hurt anyone but myself. I'm not evil or crazy, I just feel pathetic and useless.

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