I’ve had a pretty weird history with sex. Just brought up in an area where sex is taboo, parents acted more like pals than lovers, and the only relationship I’ve had with men have been sexual aside from current bf. We’ve talked about it all many times, but I’ve acted out emotionally a number of times and I imagine he’s grown weary. For instance, if he isn’t up for sex when I initiate three times in a row (like initiate one day, then two days later, then some time later) and it’s been a week without sex, I feel undesired and hurt and lonely and like he’s not interested.

For intimacy, we hold each other a lot. Close snuggling or random hugs and holding. Always touching, like I said. Kissing often, but only rarely does the kissing turn passionate and lead to anything else. Kissing almost never leads to sex with us, we usually make the decision to have sex with other obvious actions.

We go out to eat but not like fancy dates. It’s because we always both split things evenly and it’s not really asking each other out it’s just...deciding to go out

We both enjoy each other’s company at home and often choose that over eating out, so we’ll order delivery and watch tv. So....rare dates.