Taking a guess here, but you come across as high in trait neuroticism. You mentioned the word feel four times in this thread and described how easily you become irritated. This is not a criticism but I think a clash of personalities is at play. Understand that plenty of people find the expression of emotions disconcerting and even abrasive, especially in formal settings like school and work where some detachment is expected. Keep your guard up and maintain a poker face, more or less. It's safest to share your emotions only with people you trust. I hope you have good friends you can talk to, since your family seems to be lacking in sensitivity. But you may be exuding more emotion than you realize and it's setting these people off. I think that's it. Trolling is sometimes a way people relieve the tension they feel around emotional situations, humor being the psychological defense mechanism it is. They may experience it as unwanted emotion is being "forced" on them, perhaps at a subconscious level. They don't deal well so they push it away and push you away in the process. I'm not sure of what I've written here. Sorry if I've gotten you wrong and forgive me if I've been too direct. And by all means, speak up for yourself immediately and nip that verbal aggression in the bud!