I'm with you... Also hospice. Also working with lots of COVID+. My brother who lives with me was positive and symptomatic in November (got it elsewhere). I'm tested 2x weekly since May, still negative, no antibodies.

I've had super "neat freak" coworkers also test positive, and I just kinda feel like waiting for my turn next here.... I went out and bought a 3m p100 cartridge respirator mask a couple months ago and been using that for visits, cartridges' so that I can just bleach wipe the whole thing down after. My boss tried to tell me I can't be using this and to use the procedure masks and KN95's as needed... I told her thats not happening, and they've been quiet. We've got 4 case managers quarantined out right now so the volume has been stupid, and they've been really hounding us to do last minute admissions, and visit coverage.

They had me go out for an admission last week, Alz Late, Guy is 6C, pps 60 at best, no major comorbids, no major status change just glacial decline type stuff. I left, gave it to the Doc short and sweet (love my docs) and stamped that one nonadmit. The bosses want you to play ball soo bad some times, all they see is the $$$. I want to snap at them like why the fuck are you chasing all these barely certifiable patients, when our staffing is crippled and our census is at all time highs?

I totally sympathize going into shithole situations and having the little angel and devil on your shoulders arguing with eachother....

I'm sorry your bosses/job don't care about you... if things aren't working out. There is ALWAYS another job.