You seem very fixated on looks; e.g., other women's "imperfections", men who match you look-wise, your ex's other girlfriends being more physically attractive than you. To me, this is the mindset of someone in high school, not someone in their thirties.

I agree looks are important, but I suspect you're overprioritising them - not even just in terms of your own standards, but as the primary lens through you which seem to be viewing dating and relationships. I think this leaves you with a limited perspective that may attract equally superficial relationships, since you're assessing based on superficial (and therefore tenuous) rather than deep factors.

Don't date people you're not attracted to, but prioritise deeper indicators of compatibility.