Feeling like you never grew up?

I can Definitely relate to this. I feel the same way about the way i look and sound. I graduated High school last year tried moving out. it dint work out and i ended up moving back in with my dad its been 7 months since i have moved back and i still have not gotten a job. I work with my dad a lot. I just now started applying for jobs but i live in a small town so theirs not many jobs or you have to know somebody (family or family friend) in order to get the job. My Mom abused / Neglected me. my grandma manipulated me (which is a form of abuse) as a kid. while i was very much a tomboy and was allowed to play with boy toys a lot. I was also influenced into wearing dresses and pink and being told to look a certain way or act a certain. the female gender role was defiantly forced on me here and there. Anyways since i'm just now getting the ball rolling i haven't even started gender therapy but its been talked about and i'm trying to financially support myself. my dad is just now teaching me some adult things like having a bank account. I also have really bad anxiety, I feel like myself and i feel my age when i'm over at my friends house and all the stress and anxiety of being a adult and trying to move myself forward goes away and i can enjoy myself. I have gotten myself back into old hobby's and i have never felt better.i guess it will have to do for now, i'm stealing the 'happy man child' from sejhammer because god damn i am, and i don't think i would want to change or feel differently about myself . I also struggle with putting male gender role stereo type stuff on myself and seeing where i belong as a guy while i'm strong and kinda muscular and work with my dad in construction i like computers and video games i'm also pretty artsy so i guess im saying is we all get there eventually it will be your time when you are feel ready

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