feelings of my child

yeah that is my next step bc i want a good relationship w him , its shit right now. he knows i dont wna play w him cause i dont want to deal w his bad self later. everyday i get mad at him for SOMETHING! i dont want to b on section 8 but i need to get away desperately before its worse. theres no violence when i turn off tv after him not agreeing on timer being up, but its the ugly attitude name calling he thinks its funny / cool / cute whatever tf he thinks. then he will go to the next activity wanting to play w someone an i say no cause of the way he acted then ill go on my computer. i like being away from him but then i miss him and feel guilty for being such a bitch to him, calling him horrible names, telling him i want to go away an i want a good kid, not him. im such a bitch and im traumatizing him which is y im better off away. if i was able to, sadly i would leave an b even more depressed bc i left him. i dont deserve him.

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