Okay. I know I have been complaining about my lack of weight loss for a few weeks and I'm about to complain some more. Here's why:
I am 5'2" and about 160lbs. I am literally beyond the 4th quartile of bodyweight on the weakpots goals spreadsheet, despite being a womanlet. And when I posted my bicepening photo to IG, I got a bunch of random troll comments about how "fit" I look. So I have a fair amount of fat/weight to lose.
I hired someone reputable to help me cut down a weight class (20lbs). They have worked with tons of strength athletes and produced lots of great results and happy customers based on a sound approach. They estimated it would take about 3-4 months for me to get to 63kg. After 6 weeks, I am down less than 4lbs and I'm still over my normal competition weight. (I'm 74kg and I've been competing at 72.)
Here are my approximate macros for a workout day: 90p/180c/55f. And rest days are in the ballpark of 120p/60c/55f. I think we can all agree that is not a whole lot of calories. I started off higher and have scaled back over the past 6 weeks to try and see some weight loss, but I'm still getting nothing. I have had exactly 3 cheat meals in the past 3 weeks - and one of those meals was a goddamn turkey sandwich. Otherwise I have weighed/measured everything going into my mouth. I am so hungry. And I am exhausted to the point that it is negatively affecting my life outside the gym. I am spacey at work and for the second week in a row, I've become an emotional mess by the time Friday rolls around.
I am lifting 4x week. I added in 3 cardio sessions this week. But I am still getting absolutely nowhere with the scale.
Does this sound like a fittit post where you think the person lacks self-awareness and is obviously deluding themselves? Yup! If someone presented this scenario to me, I would call bullshit. Except I'm living this experience and I just want to scream/cry/eat and maybe not in that order. So I'm just calling bullshit on myself by mentally berating myself constantly.
Either I am so incompetent that I can't weigh food accurately or my metabolism is totally broken/nonexistent. Possibly both! But either way I just feel like I am grinding and failing really hard.
Everything feels bad and not just because I am still fat and hungry. I could really use a hug.