Such a shame a guy like you is wasting your life away with somebody like that. I’ll say it once before and I’ll say it again, mental health is NOT an excuse to destroy the people you love. Please please please speak to a professional about this on your own, did she have capacity? Just because you suffer from MH issues and have suicide attempts (I’ve suffered and done both) does not mean you don’t know what you are doing. If she was medically and legally deemed to not have capacity... (someone lacking capacity - because of an illness or disability such as a mental health problem, dementia or a learning disability - cannot do one or more of the following four things

• Understand information given to them about a particular decision *Retain that information long enough to be able to make the decision *Weigh up the information available to make the decision *Communicate their decision.)

... then she didn’t cheat, she was sexually assaulted because she wasn’t in the right mind to consent and you need to contact the police. I work in a hospital and I see these things all of the time... If she really wasn’t as fault like she is claiming, she would have no issue proving this from her medical notes.

But well done you for being such a great person. I really hope that you find the things in life you deserve, because you deserve the world, and I really do mean that. ❤️