Fighting Undiagnosed ADHD.

I Lived undiagnosed, not knowing for decades. You feel like you’re falling apart. Maybe you are but that relief is real. Finally may have a reason behind many of your “failings.” The next part for me was realizing how damn cool it is how we are able to adapt.

Medication is not a magic pill BUT it is absolutely life changing. I can connect and flow with people and no longer feel that dark, depressing lonely feeling despite being surrounded by people and having friends. I can finally focus on one thing at a time. I no longer jump around with different tasks before finishing one, and this solves the problem of forgetting to do something because I start doing something else and forget all about the initial task. Mood swings are practically gone, and I can now calmly state why something is bothering me without blowing up which prevents a lot of arguments, not all but a lot.

Most importantly, racing thoughts are softened. I can now properly engage with my kid and literally just sit there able to solely enjoy my time with her. Something bothering me about tomorrow? It’s there in my mind but it’s comfortably tucked away because I’m just focused on enjoying my kids company. And I can read the same book multiple times without physical discomfort and having to get up and take a brain

There are some negative things though and places where it’s lacking. For me, hasn’t done jack to my motivation and I’m still procrastinating - I’m focused on something but it’s not necessarily what needs to be done.

Also and I think this is due to my newfound ability to focus, distractions really irritate me. Going back to my kid, if I’m reading a book to her and my spouse needs me to do something and is pushy about it, that really gets me worked up whereas it hadn’t before. Also can’t have the tv running, background music, my kid screaming, and my spouse talking at the same time but that’s easily fixable because you just turn off the peripheral electronics. Also and maybe it’s a side effect, very loud sounds feel like an earthquake in my head and stop me in my tracks - never happened before

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