Misery loves company so let me tell you what happened to me just this week.

I never really had a girlfriend (i'm 30 now) so two years ago when I met someone online and we had a connection I was filled with so much joy and happiness. We had so many things in common and had great conversation. We would discuss future plans and our goals (own a home, have kids, etc etc). We were together for two years.

One problem I had was my current job was just not cutting it and in order to make our plans happen I told her I wanted to spend 9 months studying in order to get a better job. She was a little bit hesitant but understood I was doing it for both of us.

It was at this point she began a relationship with someone else. While I was spending sleepless nights trying to study incredibly difficult material she was texting love messages to someone else. During this time she would ask if she could go on some vacations with her friends. Of course I said "go ahead, have a great time" thinking she should have some fun while I was stressed out about exams.

The same nights that I was terrified of failing exams, she was with her other guy. After I finished my last exam, I was filled with so much anxiety about whether I passed or not. I needed her more than ever and she was incredibly cold to me. I rationalized it thinking I was no longer fun because I was so stressed.

After I passed the exam, I decided I wanted to propose to her. I talked with my parents and got them on board (my mother really wants grandkids). It was at this time I discovered the texts. For whatever reason I did not confront her about it. I simply asked her why she was so cold to me when I needed her. She told me she didn't love me anymore.

And now, I'm not really sure how to feel. I just can't get over the betrayal. I'm telling myself the best revenge is just to live a good life. Trying to lose some weight first and let time try to heal the wounds.