I appreciate your words. As much as I try to convince myself that I have worth I can not. My eating disorder has been getting really bad lately. I’m living in an incredibly neglectful situation. I’m a kept person in a way. I’m controlled. I feel powerless. I have as much power as I did when I was a child as a grown woman in a marriage. I don’t want to be a woman I don’t want to be anything. I’m trying to teach my kids body positivity and self esteem and I’m starving myself. I want to escape everything but where to? Nowhere. I feel like such a hypocrite. I’m trying so hard. I feel like I’m sacrificing myself so everyone else can be happy. I’m just having it rough today. I’m ok.