Finding info about stopping HRT

I have had some moderate breast growth (mtf), especially in one side. I guess I'm just hoping that it will go away, even though I'm pretty sure it won't.

I don't know, exactly. Part of me is so sure that this is the only true thing I've ever known. But my dysphoria, specifically about my breasts, has increased the further I've gone.

Part of me is worried that I just wanted to find a place where I can be accepted, and I found this. And part of me remembers all these little things from growing up that I either repressed or forgot about.

I'm in a good place now, other than this. But I've also been hiding my sexuality. And I do want to be more feminine. But i just don't know if I'm ready to go all the way.

And another part of me sees how strong this has made me, how caring and empathic and thats who I want to be, not a man or a woman. I want to be caring and compassionate, and I don't need to transition to do that. But I wasn't before I started.

And part of me is scared because I'm old, and that I'll just end up with some halfway between body and I'll never be happy, no matter what I choose. And I'm worried I'll be stuck with that because I have it already, and that I might as well stay the course.

And I keep going in circles like that. And since I keep coming back to stopping, I think I should stop, because I'm clearly not confident enough.

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