I was raised Christian Scientist. At 17 I tried suicide. I've been "agnostic" most of my life, but I've become hard-core Atheist in the past few years.

I'm 50 now.

17 was a long time ago, but I still remember the bag taped around my neck. It was only a last gasp panic reaction that caused me to lurch, rip the bag, and save my own life.

I only tell you that so I can explain I was just as low, depressed and actually tried to end it around the same age. I've been there.

I can tell you that there is endless possibility just around the corner. Break up your routine. Try new things. Go to the library. (hint: it's better than the Internet.) The years between 15 and 21 are the toughest I ever lived. I didn't have Reddit or even friends, so nobody told me it would be better later.

But it was. It got better later. That's the long-term view.

Short term, I'd need to know you better to give good advice. I can't recommend my approach, honestly... I rebelled, dropped a bunch of acid and smoked weed to forget my youth for about 10 years. By the time I was in my late 20s, I had to check into AA.

That was a cult, almost as bad as Christians. So, I'd recommend trying it sober. I would have held down better jobs.