I feel like I’ve believed in body neutrality before I knew it ever had a name. One of my friends recently described me as the “least vain” person she’s ever met because I’ve never given a crap about appearance. Of others either apparently...I can’t tell you how many comments I get about how my husband is way less attractive than me.

I don’t mean this as a brag, because obviously in some ways I’m still hung up on all of it. Mainly because it’s almost like my personal opinion doesn’t matter. I still have to deal with society.

Now I just dress to be invisible and it works alright, but I can’t have fun with appearance. I can’t wear a swimsuit. I just don’t want to have people laugh at me and say mean things to me, even if I know they’re in the wrong.