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Adult beautiful means you look honestly older then really are but still look good. It's what girls use when they lie to older men about their age only for the man to find out but still get in trouble for what they didn't know. I was trying to stress my looks so you could understand that I was often mistaken for an adult. As a child I was actually more interested in being with girls over boys so maybe I did come off arrogant. Anyway I find this hallarious as I have never been called self obsorbed before in my life. I'm actually pretty shy yet quick to make friends. After reading your comment I can't help but wonder if you decided I was lying and wanted to insult me more then gain something from the story. I'll explain something to you then. I called it adult beautiful because I didn't know how to explain it very well. In my family the girls develop unusually fast and boys tend to be very immature about it. Most start developing in elementary school and being teased for having breast isn't actually fun. I figured one could figure it out that a girl could look far older then she is because of her looks. However I realized at a young age people don't actually care. What they see is what they want to see and they tend to focus on that one detail. I was being harassed and I was a seriously scared and knew this was Happening because of my looks. So when I wrote this that was honestly my focus and what I wanted people to understand not realizing I gave a source of attack. I am beautiful in my own right however growing up a black girl in a white school and being told by a boy he doesn't want me because of that doesn't make arrogance in fact I was lucky to still be a virgin upon marriage instead of seeking any compliment I could from guys. I was an intimidating girl but I know looking back at my pictures I was prettier then I realized and I was bisexual and didn't have problems getting a girl friend. Arrogant?? I find that amusing as I was arrogant but mostly because I thought I knew everything. At times I honestly did know everything having a high ability to retain information but I wasn't without flaw. I will have to ask how can a man realize from driving a car that a modestly dressed young girl most of the times coming home from the store or the library had no personality? I didn't like parities I preferred books, I often indulged in documentaries and my parents loved buying me journals so I could write instead of running of the streets lol. I just want you to know I stressed my looks because it was the honest cause of the even and the reason behind it. Out in the day light minding my own business and it truly scared me that I could get that kind of attention because of them. I I find it disturbing that you actually counted it but I'll leave you with this. That was the first day in my life where I truly realized my looks could get me hurt or negative attention. It was the first time as a child I truly understood I had to be more careful. I learned that not everyone was a nice person just because I was in my home are. Till this day it scares me that that happen to me. I stressed it not to be arrogant but to make an honest point. You focus on my so called arrogance I focused on my understanding and fear. After writing this I cried not because of my looks or my arrogance but because I remembered how I felt. I remembered how after that day I was a bit more scared. I grew up working in my Mother's Day care, reading my books, no real interest in parties. After that happened I developed a fear of men that I didn't get over till I met my husband and even till this day it scares me a bit when I get that one guy who yells out his window. I never noticed how truly bad it effected me till my own best friend before husband talked to me about it. Maybe I did stress my looks too much. Maybe I did seem arrogant when I wrote this. however I hopped someone would see how it seriously effected me and not focuse on this silly little detail. You know I'm not comfortable showing skin? Stockings preferably as little skin as possible? Even in the summer? Some arrogance I seem to have...

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