Food for thought: Google Trends

That's what I did. I spent this entire week looking at this reddit, searching Google every hour on the hour to see if a new list for my area was posted somewhere, and generally worrying myself sick. On Wednesday, I had my annual checkup, and my blood pressure was 154/95, which is way up from where it was a year ago.

Last night, I laid it out for my SO. It went better than I had been fearing. Sure, she was shocked and pissed, but she thanked me for telling her.

My situation was unique... I joined AM in 2010 wanting to have an affair, but after only about 5 days on the site, I realized that AM was a waste of the and money for me. Soooooooooo... a few weeks later, I DID find someone to have an affair with, but I met her in a community group, not on AM. She was married too and we had a fling that lasted for a few months, then ended. I felt like I had gotten the cheating bug out of my system without getting caught. But... big surprise... in 2013, the other girl's husband found evidence of the affair, and he outed me to my wife. So I got caught after all, 3 years after the affair.

Two years have now passed, and my wife and I have a stronger relationship than we had in 2010. We did couples therapy for a year. We've been working hard on mending the marriage.

So when this leak came out, I was dreading her finding out because it would dredge up the past. I wanted to keep it from her, but when I saw how high my blood pressure was on Wednesday, I realized that it wasn't healthy for me to live with this dread. So last night, I told her: "When I had the affair in 2010 I didn’t meet that girl on AM. I've already told you how we met. But... a few weeks before I met her, I had decided that I wanted to cheat, and the first place I looked was AM. I signed up, then realized it was a joke, and then I ended up meeting my girlfriend somewhere else. I'm sorry that I never mentioned it, but in the context of getting caught with the actual affair, I never once thought about the 5 days I spent on AM."

All in all, I think it will work out.

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