Well, I am FB friends with my bio siblings, but it's not like we get together to BBQ or anything. They are all half a country away. I only met one of them, and will probably only meet the one. The others don't seem too interested, so I don't push it.

My bio mom has since passed. She fell ill last December and passed in February. She didn't lead a very healthy lifestyle, and when I went to meet her, she seemed pretty resigned to the idea that she was going to die. I know that sounds sort of sad / bad, but I think she was somewhat comfortable with the idea. Her kids are still pretty torn up about it, though. Somehow I think that in meeting her, I answered a lot of questions she had from when she gave birth to me back when she was a teen and was okay with things the way they were. I suppose that seems sad / bad as well, but it's the impression I got from her when I met her.

As for glad, it's sort of mixed. I had an idea in my head on how my bio mom was going to be, and it was surprisingly accurate. I guess if I had to describe the whole thing, it was like finally scratching an itch I forgot I had. However, the rest of me is pretty numb to it all.

All in all, I was worried that I would cause a major disruption in their lives when I contacted them. As it turns out, her other kids were VERY aware of my existence (she would bring it up often, from what I heard) and my bio mom was incredibly angry with her mother for forcing her to give me up. As a result, she didn't speak to her for nearly two decades.

But at the end of the day, we were strangers to one another and sometimes had a hard time keeping a conversation going. I'm just glad it didn't go worse than it did, I suppose.