23 years old. I watched the last two episodes this morning after slowly working my way through since the premiere and I'd say the show also "broke" me; all I've been able to do today is lie on my bed, sleep, cry, and think about things.

The show brought up several personal things that I've been able to suppress for many years. The biggest is probably my feeling of being always alone brought on by my actions, or more like inactions, that are very similar to Clay's.

Aside from the scene at the party where Hannah and Clay nearly hookup, we both have regularly talked to a girl that we have feelings for, who also has feelings for us, and despite many hints, never do anything about it. In my case, she took me on a dinner-and-a-movie date and I still didn't get the fucking hint because I was too scared of actually doing anything. That was in high school; I'm now in college doing the exact same thing, except this time with a guy who I'm 80% sure is gay, and I'm getting things that I'm nearly sure are hints, but again, I'm obviously pretty terrible at seeing hints and could be reading too much into them.

Another topic the movie brought to my surface was that I had someone like Jeff where I'd help him academically, and he'd help me socially. Going from basically a mute to a normal sociable person is a lot of work and I was exhausted from it so I pushed this person away losing a good friend.

I apologize for the long rant that took over an hour to write, but I just needed to get it out of my system.