NOPE! I see a lot of posts here of people saying they always knew something was wrong, but I never had a clue. I just figured everyone else knew what they wanted to do and I didn't, so I thought I just had no direction and thus no motivation.

I grew up with a brother who is autistic. With two parents working full time and trying to take care of themselves and him, I was definitely put on the back burner. My friends' parents were always on top of their projects and tests and schoolwork, and my parents never asked about any of that stuff. I wasn't held accountable to anyone but myself. And, as we all know, letting myself down was easy and something I had become used to. I was a good student until about midway through high school.

I attended a junior college for a couple of years after lasting a semester at a university, thinking things would be different. Again, I just figured I didn't know what I want to do with my life and failed class after class-- always because I stopped turning in assignments and stopped attending. The classes I did finish I got A's in-- my school counselor said she hadn't seen a transcript with only F's and A's. I decided not to go back after that meeting, I assumed I would just continue to fail. I was still oblivious.

It wasn't until I had moved across the country to be with my SO while he was in school, that I saw something on Reddit that described me to a T. Someone who had been diagnosed with ADHD in their 20s. That was last fall. SO graduated and we are back in our home state and I've been able to seek care and treatment.

I wanted to cry the first time I read through this sub; I never knew anything was wrong but everything just made sense after reading about it. I'm about to try school again in a few weeks as an accounting/business major and I am very fortunate in that I no longer need to work while attending school. With therapy and medication, I will hopefully be able to get through the unrelated classes and transfer to a good school in the area.