I'm so very sorry for your loss. I know the pain you're feeling. I had to put my little dog to sleep last November. And walking home from the vet I cried the whole way. All I can tell is that in time it will lessen. But for now crying will do your heart good. Holding it in can make a person ill. I do know that he followed me home. Your Sophie probably did the same. I would still talk to my dog, call him to come sit near me, I still would go out for a walk every now and then. I know it sounds silly but it does help in a way. The funny thing was I would always smell a sort of dog bed odder in my apartment. It was like he was still around. And for the last year I have had dreams about him. Whenever I would miss him that night I would dream about him. His bed is still beside mine too. If you have someone close to you that you can talk to about l your loss that might help. I would always call my mom when I was feeling really bad and she would just listen. I'm not sure what else I can write to help you. Just know that she loved you so very much and that you gave her a wonderful life.