A little late to the party here.

My best friend died a few years back. While I realize for a lot of people, this could be the factor that pushes them towards wanting to commit suicide, it pushed me away from the idea.

For context, I’ve been in a really healthy relationship for about 5 years. We have kids. We are happy together. I have a good job that allows me to provide for my family and have for awhile. I’m not “well off” or super comfortable, but we have enough to take care of ourselves and treat ourselves as needed.

However, I’ve always struggled with depression. It’s something that I never really spoke with my partner about. I would talk to my best friend about it and that’s it. My best friend was understanding. They supported me and that helped. It felt like that person was my outlet for the depression and I was able to completely keep it out of my relationship.

That best friend passed away suddenly. I was hurting more than ever at that point. I knew I had to tell my partner or I would have committed suicide. I broke down. I told her. She pushed me to get help. She really saved me.

Moral of my post I guess is, no matter how in control you think you are, you aren’t. Get help. Reach out. See someone. Trust the people you love.