Free Talk Friday - September 15, 2017

Well things have quickly escalated, at an exponential rate. It went from TARFUN to FUBAR and it's pretty much become BOHICA at this point.

To avoid writing a novella, I'm just gonna skip some stuff and even then it's probably going to be rather fragmented because I have a rather difficult time translating what my mind is saying into words, like know exactly what I want to say in my head but the second I try to type it out or say it everything gets fucked up like broken Japanese to English subtitles.

For context, this is a bad time of year for me to understate it. The majority of bad shit that's happened in my life is from this time of year onward and it's localized in September. So it didn't start off great to begin with because of all my comorbidities intensifying right around this time. Think Seasonal Affective Disorder w/normal people but for treatment resistant Major Depression. On top of that I'm pretty much off meds because shrinks are too expensive, my work schedule, which I've been trying to change for the longest time now, prevents me from being able to even make an appointment if I could afford it and I'm too fucked up for my primary care doc to treat. Then I ran over a screw on my way to work but I was running late b/c I didn't get much sleep b/c my brain is fucked and I couldn't afford to be late because I don't have any time off left b/c of all the other times I've been late b/c I didn't get much sleep b/c my brain is fucked. So I had to choose between losing the tire or losing my job and I chose the tire b/c I can't pay bills with a patched tire. Then I had to switch to the donut in my work parking lot after I clocked out and right when I started to jack it up I got a notification on my phone. "Flash Flood Warning is in effect." I'm not gonna go into details on that b/c it's too much but needless to say, it didn't go well. Fast forward a bit and I've got new tires, thankfully, I'm getting less sleep though to the point where I'd probably max out the Athens Insomnia Scale and my "flashbacks" and thousand yard stare "episodes" are getting more frequent. Work is starting to go downhill between the constant fear of potentially losing my job b/c of something as tenuous as one bad day that may cause me to be late and recently being moved around to positions that give me too much time to think and "let it set in" so to speak and I

It will have been four years since my death because of a suicide next week and I found out about the Equifax breach on the 7th tonight and I just found out that it looks like I can't get the TrustedID Premier thing they're giving out because I was out of the country recently so I can't put in my previous address when I say I haven't lived at my current residence for two years and I don't want to lie on something as serious as this because I don't know what kind of trouble that could get me in. So I don't know. It's gonna be interesting to see how things play out these next few months

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