Free Talk Friday

Idk if this is going to be well recieved as there are a lot of more serious problems around here but i really need some advice on this situation.

For the sake of anonimity, lets put some fake names to the characters friends story. The girls name will be Susan, my first friend will be X, my second friend will be Y and my third friend will be Z.

So let's start with my story with this girl that is causing a lot of trouble to me and other people.

We barely knew each other. We are from different towns here in Spain but she used to live in my current town and she knows most people round here. But the first time I heard about her was last summer. She and a good friend of mine (X) had started talking (and still continue to do so) via Instagram and Whatsapp everyday. They became real good friends but it seemed like my friend X wanted something more than friendship. I thought that was cool, after all, X had been in some fucked up situations regarding girls in the past and I wanted him to be happy. So, as days went on, suddenly this girl responded to my instagram story in which I was making a joke. I answered back just not to be an asshole and after 4 messages or so, I left her on read because i didnt want to interfiere in X and susans relationship (to be honest, he looked really in love). Okey so some months later, I uploaded a pic with some eminem lyrics and just that same day she uploaded another pic to her story with yet more eminem lyric and posing really provocative. I responded to that pic with a simple 'EMINEEEEM' but I really didnt want to talk to her often or develop any kind of relationship because of my friend. But we clicked. We clicked hard and were instantly engaged by the conversation. And so, I started talking to her and getting to know her, but feeling so guilty I was screwing up my friend. I felt like I was a traitor or something and I needed to tell him that I had been talking to her. And I did, one night we got drunk at a house party (thats a minor detail but I thought i would share it with you). Even telling him I was talking to her, I felt really guilty, but this feeling started disappearing as we talked more. Days went on with nothing remarkable happening, she was talking to both of us. At one point, she said that she gave me a little bit of priority over X. So, as new year arrived, Susan and I found out we were going to the same party. I brought my friend Y with me and some more and she was going with her friends. I wont lie, I was a little bit into her but I didnt wanna make up with her (even though she gave me all the signals to do it) to not screw even more my friend X. At this point, I have to point out that X and Y know each other since kids and are good friends, and Y knew all along X was deeply in love with her, I just suspected it. Susan, Y and me got really really drunk, specially me. But what I didnt expect was Y making up with her. I obviously left, feeling terrible for X and for myself. This is were Z comes up. We had been friends since I have memory and he knew X and Y but not Susan. We had some trouble between ourselves and fell out in the past month and didnt talked at all. But me, in my drunkness, I wanted to solve everything and get back to being best friends and I did. I explained the fucked up situation that was happening that night and apologized for everything. Later that same night, Susan was worried about me and wouldnt stop calling and texting me. I just was in shock and didnt want to talk to her at all but I ended up meeting with her (sidenote: I actually dont remember this. I know it because Susan and I took some stupid pics and sent them to me the next morning. Imagine how drunk I was). I was really angry. How could this happen? I wanted to stop talking to her and cut off the communication. But I didnt. Even though it hurted me, I understood that they were drunk and shit happens. Being mad wasn't gonna help. Some days went by, X was destroyed by that situación and me and some friends wanted to cheer him up. But on the thirteenth of january she wanted to meet up with me and I wanted too. After all, I have really good laughs with her. So we met up, nothing happened, but I had a really good time. Some days later, she told me that she wasn't sure how she felt about me. She had some doubts about it. I had some too. That same week was ver birthday and I asked if I could borrow some of her time to hang out and talk irl. I bought a small, cheap but personal gift for her (some printed pics of us) and when I was about to give it to her, she closed her eyes. I should have kissed her, I know. I felt like I missed my shot and asked her to meet up again the next day (I gave her the gift just as it was 00:00 and her birthday) The day after, i also didnt kissed her, but I told her I was having some doubts about what to feel. Okey so this was sunday, the next day on monday was the first time I was going to see my friend Z after clarifing some of our thoughts and such. (Paralell story: On friday, Z started insulting me because again I was making the same mistakes that led to our fell out some months ago. On saturday, we met up and chatted about everything. He told me he had fell out with the friends he usually hangs out when Im not around. He was using me to not be left alone, I knew this, but I wanted to be in good terms with him). So on monday, Z and I were seeing again since the reconciliation. Everything went ok. In the afternoon, Susan told me that Z responded to one of her stories. I was mad. Wtf dude, even the story he responded to was about me. The next day, I spoke to him. Dude, let me talk to her, see if this relationship goes somewhere else than more friends or not, then you are free to talk to her everything you want. I made that clear. Not even a day and he responded yet again to her story. He didnt even tell me, I just had to guess it by his behaviour and asked her. I was really pissed and Z and I stopped talking again. Now, some days ago I discovered they have been talking sporadicly and even have each other numbers. I feel enraged towards Z, and I want to talk and have a good time laughing with Susan but I cant keep standing this situation anymore.

Making up with Y, first she had doubts, then she has not, then she throws some hints at me about making up, and now she is talking to Z. She knew Z and me had fallen out again.

I have good laughs and feel like I can be myself when Im talking to her or with her and I really dont care being friendzoned because I know a serious relationship wouldnt work, but at the same time this situation is taking on my nerves.

What should I do? Should I cut this relationship off

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