We are, I guess. Which is why tonight left me even more confused and "what the hell are we" as ever. She was always averse to kissing on the lips when we were seeing each other (again, big intimacy issues). Tonight she was named the "ice queen" of a winter festival we have here, there was this big public performance, and at the end of it in front of everyone she kissed me on the lips again. Just very...not the her I was seeing. And she's coming over Monday night for a binge-fest of The Good Place where it's pretty heavily implied she'll be at my place for the night.

But I also think she's just being overly "friendly" and leading me on. And that's why I need to stop seeing her. I really want to be there for her as a friend, I also just can't deal with being lead on.