This'll probably get buried but idc.

About a year ago I was told that I cant play football anymore because of my heart condition and because of that I feel like my life has gone to shit. I'm a teenager and during weekends I sit around playing Xbox and watching TV and do the same on weekdays after school. I can feel myself declining academically as well, in the last three months or so.

Maybe this sounds braggy but I was like the 'star' of the team, and when I had to stop it felt completely ripped away from me, I used to love football and was really passionate about playing. Like, in comparison to lots of others my age I felt like I really understood the game, I could see passes and knew when to shoot and when to dribble etc. To have that gone is just shit.

I feel bad as well because my dad's been trying to get me into golf and I can tell that he hates seeing me slump around the house all day. The other day we spoke about the whole ordeal. I told him about my anger at the Universe or God or whatever, like I don't even know who I'm angry at but we spoke about that.

I watched the Anderlecht game yesterday with my brother and my Dad and we had fun, I'm excited for the Chelsea game and I'm trying to get back into watching United. I'm feeling better though and will be trying pitch and putt and stuff.