Okay. Sitting in my car back at my apartment. My anxiety has calmed down now.

I have until 10:30 to show back up there (it's like 20min away). I feel bad leaving now, and like I should go back. But I really really wasn't enjoying that. And I wasn't about to use a condom anyway so I doubt I'd even have been fucking. And if I did that would have been a terrible decision. So is it for the best I left? Real talk. Not you guys who just want to see crazy shit happen. I'm talking about real actual I don't want an STD.

I could smoke a joint and/or bring some beer with me and show back up though. My anxiety would definitely be calmed then. Shit I could even Uber so I could straight up get fucked up. But. I don't want to