Being the stronger personality in a relationship has nothing to do with it. I'm not insinuating that she's the victim of any bad actors. I don't know the guys she's with, but I doubt any other person would worship her the way you do. I read the letter, and sincerely hope you took Moon's advice. You're obsessed with her in an unhealthy way. Only a narcissist would welcome this level of infatuation from another person. She's keeping you around because she knows you'll always lift her up, but I don't believe she has any intention of dating you. To be brutally honest, I don't know many women who would be attracted to a person who found them breathtakingly gorgeous and put them on a pedestal at first glance. It may be taken as shallow that you decided how you felt about her before you met and it never appeared to change as you got to know her. It would also be difficult to form a natural bond with someone who sees you this way.

I don't think there's hope for a relationship here, but, even if there were, I think it would be a bad idea to chance it. The way you feel towards her is seriously unhealthy, and I wouldn't even consider it to be love. You sound like a very genuine and kind person, so I urge you not to take any of this as an insult. You need to move on. Only one date? Please, go out and meet new women. Get more experience. She's not your girl.