Friendshits

So here's my story:

I went to grew up in a tiny middle of nowhere town. Some stuff happened my freshman year and I transfered to the town over in high school because my dad lives there. I lost contact with all of my friends over the next year or so because I wasn't around for the day to day stuff so naturally we drifted. This was also well before cell phones and Internet in every home. I was in this new school against my will so I was actively not make friends. That ended up making me look like an outcast and I was slowly accepted into the fuck up group. So my junior and senior years I was a fuck up. I still had great grades and never got arrested/ODed like my friends, but I did hang out with the worst of the worst. Halfway through my senior year I somehow made friends with some people a few towns away. I had my car and money from my job so I was always over there to escape my local friends. However these new people were also pretty bad. After I got pregnant I realized in order to better myself I had to distance myself from all of these people. So I moved back in with my mom in that tiny town and I started working my ass off. I cut all ties with those people and because I was back in my tiny middle of nowhere town and none of them had vehicles they couldn't just "drop by" to see me. And I stayed busy. I was going to college full time and working 60hrs a week in a town 3 hours away (don't ask how I did it but I did it). Right as I was about to finish school I got the job I have now and immediately started working as many hours as possible and saving money to move out. I have yet to make any new friends other than coworkers because my entire life revolved around me trying to survive and support my child. So I'm here at 38 with no real friends. I had a few coworkers that I tried to be friendly with but I didn't actively hang out with them because work friends are not real friends.
I went off on a tangent... But yes, I have - several times - cut ties with friends who were not good for me. I also found out years ago that several of those old friends live right in my neighborhood and I've been lucky enough to never have run into any of them in public.

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