I'm sad and I don't know how to stop. I can feel the weight of all my recent bad decisions building and I kinda just laugh about it. Fuck it.

it's best to laugh about it.

my insides are absolutely burning. I don't know how my body keeps forcing me to vomit when there is goddamn nothing in my stomach, not even horrible hot yellow bile.

guessing you can't drink water or something? when i get like this i try to get some water in. the weirdest part is drinking cold water, then vomiting up cold water. that is such an eerie physical feeling.

I want to die a lot these days. It's a joke but also I'm not joking

<3

And now my partner realizes I hate myself and just doesnt want to be with someone like that.

oh yeah they all do that unless you get someone just as fucked up as you are. that's what im going for rn. but even that's hard to get right. keep getting ppl more fucked up than i am (and im pretty damn fucked)

up listening to Karen O - Day Go By from some record label i almost got signed to but i blew it like a dumbass so i live in the woods alone. i sleep all the time though so i got that going for me