She is fucking perfect and I hate it.

10/10 damn I loved this story. Took me back to my high school days. I also had a friend who I talked to all the time, had feelings for, but we just never hung out. She was a great influence on me and honestly was just a source of motivation

We were pretty close and understood each other well but our friend groups were so different it just wasn't going to happen and I think she didn't want to hang out just us because she didn't want to give me the wrong idea.

I'll share what happened between us but it's not that interesting. We openly talked about going to the fall dance together but someone asked her before I could and she said yes. It's a bit more complex than that but that's basically what happened. After that we just started drifting apart. We texted each other less and less. It felt more like a habit than actually wanting to do so. We talked a lot about college and what we were each going through with that. I would try to hang out so I could be honest and express my self but it just never happened and it was clear she didn't want anything other than a friendship so I just played it cool

But really shit just gets real your senior year in high school. Most people are turning 18. You have to make decisions. And you're about to leave the bubble you've been in your entire life. You become an adult.

We both started partying but with different types of crowds and that just drove us apart more. Honestly there was some tension built in between us for a long time and it was finally coming out since the time was ticking. Come spring we still talked frequently but it wasn't a close bond. The summer before college it felt awkward talking to each other because it felt like a formality.

Finally the week before college starts we just stop talking to each other. Neither person texted the other one day. It felt weird, I felt like I was being ignored but I was too proud to do anything. The semester started and I thought about her every once in a while but that became increasingly infrequent.

We haven't talked since high-school. Honestly doesn't bother me any more but for a time I thought about it a lot.

I don't really know what to tell you other than my experience. In my situation telling her my feelings wasn't going to change anything. She more or less already knew. She liked someone else but we were still good friends so she kept me at bay. If I was ever in a situation to tell her how I felt and I had the balls to do so, I think she would have stopped me before I got too deep into it

If I had to go back and do it again I'd try to focus on her as a friend, especially someone with a close emotional connection. There are plenty of girls in high-school you can develop feelings for but this kind of friendship is hard to come by.

Op I do advice you to figure out what you want to study in college and what you want to do in life ASAP. I can't express enough how much of an upper hand you'll have if you come into college day 1 with a plan of what you want to do. Try your hardest to get a double major, it is a huge differentiator on your resume.

Stay close with Jessica and make her your closest friend. Someone you could tell anything to. As for a relationship I'm not the right person to say

Sorry for ranting but you just took me back Haha

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