man I've seen people living like this, like when I was in rehab I would see that revolving door of people in Florida who go to rehab, rehab convinces them to live in a halfway house then they relapse and use maybe once and the rehab tells them they HAVE to go back to rehab for 30 days since they relapsed and its got to be just the worst spinning fucking hamster wheel with the illusion of progress ever.. I remember meeting sooo many people that were from different parts of the country down there in Florida who got convinced as either full grown independent adults or young adults still on their parents tit to stay down there because of this recovery "community" that was down there that they could be a part of and the counselors would talk to these kids parents and tell them what a good supportive recovery community existed down which I guess can be true and helpful but these people are essentially strangers and if somebody did relapse its got to be a night mare for them to deal with esp if they were sent down there and un able to return home.

dont relapse, get some clean time and get yourself out of that spinning wheel because its never gonna end if you just keep fucking up and its no way to live, t