Gay trans guys

toys & activities: weird kid shit like running around in the woods pretending to be animals with my friends (cis female) and drawing

crushes: skinny guys usually with long hair and usually tall but not exclusively. always had to be nice good people. my last irl crush was in ninth grade (havent been around guys my age for a while..) and he was so wonderful im still a lil in love with him

top/bottom/vers: vers although i think topping would be hard for me sometimes due to dysphoria and shit im not experienced idk

friends: im autistic and shidt so i was always bullied growing up and i didnt have a lot of friends. i had two cis female friends who were my neighbors and actually dated one in 8th grade before i knew i was gay and i had one friend in fourth grade who was also a cis girl but stopped being friends with me and met my current best friend in fifth grades and shes a cis straight girl whos shockingly well rounded for someone who would put up with me. and various acquaintances. i have some online friends too. i also have friends from school but theyre all adults like.. they work there (its not a traditional school its complicated)

realizing: haha whoah ok so this bit is complicated i actually have a dissociative disorder that i was diagnosed with a couple years ago that basically is what used to be called multiple personality disorder so i'd go through phases of iding as male and then female like back n forth, then i did integrative therapy (basically merges personalitys back into one person in the simplest explanation i can offer) and found my actual self and suddenly it was really clear and it just was like Oh okay and i just KNEW. not exactly a common experience but thats my story

puberty: bad bad!! bad! bad!!!! worst thing about it was breast development. i didnt have regular periods and never have and probably wont ever have one again considering im on t now and rarelt ever got them before, so getting boobs was the worst thing ever. i had like bigger than a d cup and got surgery at 15 cause not only was i really dysphoric i had a ton of issues with what binding was doing to my body & back issues so i got lucky

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