I'm severely depressed, having wanted a baby for 23 years. The only man who has ever wanted a baby I suspect has had a vasectomy since after 2 years I cannot conceive and I don't think he loves me anyway. I guess I have to go to a sperm bank now. I'd rather adopt but that's only for very wealthy people. Even fostering is some impossible riddle. I grew up without siblings or cousins and all I wanted more than anything was a family. I'm hurting so much. I need to get an endoscopy for an unrelated condition and I don't have a soul who wants to help me out of the hospital (they demand an escort which isn't fair). I am so depressed and I shouldn't even have a baby but I can't tell my damn brain to stop thinking every single day about a child of my own. How do I make it stop?